My Stats & Goals

I'm going to lay it all out here, so this is VERY personal. This is really hard for me to admit all of this, but I need you all to hold me to my goals. So here it is:

I weighed in at 145. My BMI is 24.9 which is barely in the "healthy range" and since weight fluctuates really I'm officially overweight (is what my Dr told me). And unfortunately I wear size 12 jeans. This is something that I have been struggling with for almost 4 years now. It all started when I got on this hormone that put me into a temporary menopause for my endometriosis, one of the side effects of that hormone was weight gain. Also I'm an emotional eater that really doesn't help my eating habits, I eat horribly!

But 2009 is a new year, so I am really working hard on eating healthier: fruit, veggies, yogurt, oatmeal, things like that. And I'm trying really hard to not eat any junk food or candy/chocolate which is hard because I have the world's biggest sweet tooth! But when I am in a snacking mood I remind myself that I have carrot and celery sticks to munch on, and when I'm craving sweets I remind myself that grapes and apples are sweet and that satisfies my craving. Also I'm trying to cut out carbonation (I say try because that is what I want to do, but Jeremy has soda all the time and I guess I am just too weak), though I will allow myself to have some on occasion, say for like my birthday, which is coming up, Feb 6th. :)
Also I am doing a full body detox/cleanse. Which will totally help my liver because of all the pain killers I've taken in the last several years. And it will help all of my organs to start working great again. Plus hopefully it will help me lose weight.
And over the past two weeks almost everyday I have taken Brayden (my son) out for a walk and to the park where we run around. And for the most part, each day I have increased the length of my walk. Also I have been doing stretching or a little bit of yoga. So I know it isn't much for exercise yet, but it's WAY better then I have been doing for a LONG time.

Anyway so my goals are to get to between 115 and 120 lbs, (if I weigh 120 it will be because of muscle) and to get my BMI to between 19.75 and 20. And to get back into my size 4 jeans at least, though if I could get back into size 2 I would be SO ecstatic!